Life of A Slave

bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Assalamualaikum.

okeyyy. i'm sad now its all just because freaking damn story about something. i just HATE it! i get sick just because all this people hurt me trough the story that they do not know. i'm hurt. and now i think i'm going to follow my own path of life. i hate to being nice again. i think i want to change into a bad one so that there is no one would hurt me? Why do everyone need to hurt me? what is my fault?

confront me and just speak it out! i'm here to hear the whole story. i hate when you are telling some kind of freaking damn stories behind me! wt*. come on lahhhh! u said that you are brave enough but you act like a coward! be in my shoes and you will know how i felt when you been critised by someone that you love! be in my shoes and feel it!

i'm here to challenge you! ergghhhhhh. i'm having gastric back just because of you! i HATE it a lot because my examination is around the corner. so,please. do not mess up with me. i know that you are more clever than me and i'm not as clever as you. do leave me alone and do not mess up with me. go and find someone else to ruin their hopes on you. but,not me! i'm going to stand by my own feet. and i'm proudly said that i love myself a lot. i'm here to do some kindness for my parents. not to hear your FAKE story for a whole day.

i know that you are so clever and do not have anything else to do. go and find someone else for you to disturb. but,please. not me, myselffffffff! i HATE you. and myself hardly HATE someone. and you are the lucky person because you are just have to be happy that now you just had become someone that I HATE!

*go and find your own life lahhhhh! i'm fed up with your attitude. u are such a ...............
May Allah blessed you.

bismillahirrahmanirrahim. assalamualaikum tuan yg dipertua, wakil kerajaan, wakil pembangkang serta ahli dewan yg bersidang sekalian. *ehem2. dah terikut gaya budak debat. hehehhe. :D

okeyy. first of all, ana menjaga pelajar SMAP Kajang B. maksudnya pasukan juniorlah. ana tak sngka pada mulanya ana akan dapat team yg sebegini rupa kerana pada mulanya ana menyangka team nie sudah tentulah hebat2 belaka. ana tak dapat nafikan mereka semua hebat tapi ana tetap perlu mengatakan mereka perlukan banyak latihan untuk mengasah pedang mereka yg masih tumpul. walau bagaimana pun, ana melalui pengalaman manis pahit bersama mereka dan ana rasa bersyukur kerana mereka boleh menerima ana di dalam pasukan.

ana? jgn tanya kenapa ana gunakan ana. nie smua pengaruh daripada timbalan kerua pembangkang/ timbalan  perdana menteri muhammad danish bin jazlan. dia yg bagi pengaruh nie kpd ana. mngkn ada yg menganggap ana nie sbgai nama panggilan kepada diri. sbnrnya ana nie mrujuk kepada saya yg diertikan dalam bahasa melayu. ana itu bahasa arab dan ana senang mendengar pelajar2 SMAP Kajang menggunakan bahasa nie. nampak sangat sopan dan teratur bunyinya. ana merasakan ana lebih bersikap baik dengan menggunakan bahasa nie.

akhir sekali, ana cuma berharap esok pusingan kalah mati separuh akhir SMAP Kajang A akan mara ke pusingan akhir. doakan untuk mereka dan junior2 mereka yg merupakan junior di bawah pengawasan ana. ana berasa gembira mendapat mereka sebagai junior debat ana. akhir sekali, assalamualaikum. :)

bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Assalamualaikum. :')

okey,jap lagi nak pergi kelas and sempat update sbb dah lama sangat sangat tak update. btw, nak wish akak  saya. Fatin Nurizzati. sy dgn ini mengaku bahawa saya memang terlupa brthday dia dan saya mntak maaf sangat2. bukan sengaja nak lupa tapi saya terlalu sibuk sangat sekarang nie. maaf maaf maaf. :')

akak, adik nak akak tau yg adik rindu akak sangat2. and sebenarnya adik mengharapkan akak ada untuk adik lagi tahun nie. tapi,cm mustahil jela kan? :') akak kena teman luqman sbb dia lebih penting daripada adik. apa2 pun,adik akan simpan hadiah yg akak pernah bagi adik tu. adik akan simpan baik2. serious adik simpannnnn. :') akak jagalah diri baik2. adik sayang akak sangat2. :') <3

baru beberapa hari lepas, saya juga dikejutkan dgn berita bahawa kakak angkat saya yg sy tak pernah jumpa langsung nak melanjutkan pelajran ke jordan. walamakkkk! sedih bukan kepalang. siap menitis lagi air mata. dulu,dialah orang yg selalu ada bila saya perlukan. tapi,saya tau semua tu takkan kekal lama. :') dia jugak milik orang lain. saya cuma mampu mendoakan yg trbaik buat dia. saya harap semua pun mndoakn yg sama buat dia. kak Syahira Haryani Yazid. <3

for both of my sister, thanks for everything. saya sayang anda berdua sangat2. serious sayang sayang sayang sayang sayang! jaga diriiiiiii. jaga hati. jaga iman. selalu ingat adik sentiasa ada untuk akak2. :)

akhir kata, saya Nur Farhana Binti Mhd Syafie dgn nie mngumumkan bahawa sy syg anda brdua sangat2. ! :') jangan pernah lupakan atau tinggalkan saya kerana saya berdiri kerana anda berdua! May Allah bless all of us. Amin. :')

bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Assalamualaikum. :')

okey. post kali nie bukan nak merepek meraban sngat pun sebenarnya. i want to make it short and simple. to all my friends, i want to say this. but,i just hope all of you didn't shocked to read this. act,on sunday 5/8/2012 I Nur Farhana Mhd Syafie officially back off from my future zauj life. after two years, again i have to back off. i have too and if you asked me why do you need to wait for him and getting hurt eventhough after two years? i would answer this. i love him because of Allah. thats all.

the thing becomes easier when he got explained to me about his feelings. all the mess already solved. and maybe i'm the one who should be blame. just put the blame on me and not to him. i dont want to hear any of cacian,makian,kutukan about him. just throw all that to me. :') but,pujian you just simply throw to him. :')

and for now,alhamdullilah. i live my on my own feet. and alhamdullilah all the mess with cube has been solved. i'm really grateful for that. alhamdullilah,alhamdullilah and once again alhamdullilah.

i think thats all for now. i'm just giving a slightest news about myself. i'm doing fine and dont worry. i'm a tougher than all of you can imagine. InsyaAllah. :') do pray for me. and for my trial. around the corner. after the eid.

bismillahirrahmanirrahim. assalamualaikum.

okey,now dah 4th of august. and i just hope i can done the best for my trial. but,after tgok video irma hasmie tu aku memang serious menangis tahap gaban. awak,bukan harapan tinggi sy letakkan ke atas hubungan kita. sy pun tak habis belajar lagi. tapi,saya harap sngat2 satu hari nanti sayalah yg bakal menjadi tulang rusuk kiri awak. kita hanya mampu merancang tapi yg selebihnya Allah yg menentukan. :')

awak,moga kita disatukan atas satu ikatan yg diredhai oleh Allah dan Rasulnya. moga awak dan saya menjadi satu pada satu ikatan yg sah. :') awak,sekarang nie masanya untuk kita focus pada apa yg kita buat k? we are going to do the best. we are going to beat the rest and be the best. do not think about the others that do know anything about us. only two of us knows better right? so,we have too always stand on our own feet. :')

awak,all the best. hanya doa sy yg mampu mengiringi jalan awak. doakan saya jugak. :') and for all friends,do pray for both of us. :')

bismillahirrahmanirrahim. assalamualaikum.

bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

assalamualaikum. baiklah. not a good starter for me as he promised to say something after SPM. i'm waiting and keep waiting for that day. but,it seems it hurts me a lot this night. again,i think i'm going to lose him. i repeat , AGAIN!

i think between us can be just a friend. it hurts. seriously. i saw his picture and i'm just drop my tears. what the? why i have to be this weak right? i have something that more important than all this. but,still i can't stop my tears. it just hurt to see our love one to be with another person.

again. i have to be strong and have to stand on my own. i just wish he be in my shoes. then,he will know what i feel about him now. there is no point to cry right?

#again. after two years. back with tears. the same person. :')
i try my best to keep smiling. seriously. but,still i cant stop the tears.

tears go away. please let it go. forever and ever.