Life of A Slave

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. So, its already in May 2015! I didn't even notice how time flies so fast and truth to be told I have experienced so much pain (alhamdulillah) and so much more joys (again, alhamdulillah).

First of all, I have been here because I thought it will be good to write something while you are in misery. and yes, I am. I am in misery. I have tried my best to recover from this kind of things but seems everything has ups and down, I felt tired to fix what I am today.

Peace be upon you.

Yeah, its a long since I have been updated something due to the lots of assignments and etc. So, lately I have been given a test by The Almighty and I feel grateful bcs at the certain point, He shows me who is the true friends and who is hidden behind the bush.

So, this story started with chasing people to 'surau' or nicely called rumah Allah. But, when people that only owns the good face but with dirty heart talks or even making something up, its become worse. When they are acting that they are really great, really truthful and really convincing. Idk what I need to express in this because what I know is I don't want anyone to be like all of them. They are making me like a bad person in front of my respected eldest.

Please, please and please. Not all the time people will see you as a good and mannered person. There is time that you will never realize what you have done and sorry to say, you are pathetic! Sometimes, we need to have this kind of senses. Sense of holding the anger in yourself and not spill it out bcs anger could be something that the evil really loves. We are not going to realize what the words/ attitudes that we have may did that may become hurtful to the other person.

So, as I mentioned please. Take an ablution when you are angry. and one more thing that is really important is, mind your words as they couldn't be taken back once they have been spilled it out by you.

People, I'm not a good person nor a good example to anyone. But, I'm trying my best not to hurt people by using my words. Just like this particular person that has my trust hurt me through words, I truly believe that someday she will realize. She didn't now, but I truly hope she will someday. Let's pray for the best for all of them.

p/s: final is coming around the corner. three months before he went to overseas.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Assalamualaikum.

So, I'm back! Yeah, as always full of stories of mine. For a person that knows me, they will know that I'm hardly write anything as I don't have all the time in this world to be spent on blog. It's 2.33 a.m and it's mid sem break. I'm hardly sleep early like a normal person.

Before going to sleep, I feel that I'm missing everyone this mid sem break. I mean not my parents for sure as they are here with me. I feel like really loved here in my house till I gain weight and I really wish I could lose some weight A.S.A.P. Haha. I dont know. It's just my feelings tortured me and I feel now I could stop thinking about someone that may be not thinking of me.

So, here it goes. Fasilitator of July-Dis 2013 is like my second family. I'm going to talk a bit about him in every single memory as it's too priceless and unreplaceable. We have met here and spend most of our time together in just like a week to prepare for orientation week. It's challenging because it's fasting month. All of them are really helps each other and that makes our bond become stronger day after day eventho we didnt know each before this. Seniors juniors doesn't make any difference as all of us are the same. I felt happy with them. We are really in all the works together.

Here we are, playing bottle games during camp. A week plus a few days has passed. Now, it's the time to get to a normal mode. I feel that we are not going to contact each other after this week. But, I'm absolutely wrong! We never lost contact to each other. Plus. our bond become stronger. We got to know each other more and the more interesting part is we share our problems, our happiness, our sadness together. Days passed by, but not our friendship. In a few weeks, we have our iftar together at Padang MPK.

Actually, I can't describe my feelings through words. There were like a lot to say but I will just give this entry some space and free of words. Let pics describe our bonds.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Assalamualaikum guysss.

Always spread the love inside yourself to others. It would make you satisfied to love others for the sake of Allah.

I really wish I could be true friends to all of my friends. Going to try remember them in my du'a. InsyaAllah.

Meaningful quotes. Absorb it and make yourself becomes one of your best friends that she'he ever had. :)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Assalamualaikum.

Hey, its about two months that I didnt write anything on this wall. It's just I'm too busy with all the works that has been assigned to me.

I have experienced so many things. Started from having a scandal on instagram then I thought about moving on without having any boys in my life. But, all that fate is not in my hand. I don't even wish to have this kind of feelings nor wishing to love someone that I barely know.

So, right now I'm enjoying every seconds of my life as I cant turn it back no matter what happens. I really appreciate it as I know that the sweet memories/ the bad one will not come twice to my life. I really wish if the times still available for me, I would like to do more.

I'm totally done with my Public Service Announcement (PSA) assignments.

Quotes that makes me stronger. Qawiy Lillahitaala.

Last but not least, stop doing something because of humans but do something for HIM. That's the real love, action.

I'm still trying to change myself to become better. But, then there were so many persons out there become judgemental on what I wear, how I behave. I admit that i'm not that girly and soft. Im quite harsh sometimes in my attitude but it doesnt mean I cant wear tudung labuh and start changing.