Life of A Slave

Hey everyone. So yes, love lesson.

I think I never good in this but then I think I could share some experience with all of you. Like how Ted Mosby did when he tell the story of how they met their mother to his kids, I will like to do the same thing just its a little bit different as I'm telling about what I have heard before.

'I couldn't forget him'

'I think he is the one'

'I have tried, but he will come'

and the worse part that I have heard is, "I CAN'T".......

So, yes. Have been looking and listening to the same things over and over since my high school. I was so good in giving advice about moving on but I know it wont be that easy once you fall for him/her. Through my own experience, I will give some tips how to let go and keep smiling eventho its hurt much.

Imagine, on how you are hungry and you really wanted to eat. There is no one will stop you to eat those delicious pizza in front of you. But then, all of sudden you said you can't. You can't eat! Why do you need to say so? You don't have to face anything to eat those pizza, but only with the words that come out from yourself that stops you. 

That's how life, friends. You are the one that decide whether you can or not. Whether you want it or not. If you are in that kind of really wanting someone, so why do you need to wait? Start from today. Never ruin yourself for someone that is not thinking or even bother if you are upset. 

I really hope those short advice will wake all of you from keep dreaming to be princess in the reality. Till then, bye. 

Hey, everyone. Peace be upon you. :)

A long time didn't write something since the last post. So, here I am going to share a story as everyone knows that I love to write about my own experience. Bizarre lies or the more powerful words is lies that are weird, strange or unusual to be seen. People are involved with lies or deceit almost everyday. Nahh, there is no one that escape from this disease including me. I'm also have my own lies towards my parents, my friends, my surroundings.

But, then this time I'm going to share about the lies that are not that usual. At least for me, its not usual but then for everyone else maybe its something that normal or could be said as a routine. As I have experienced recently, there is a person that told the lies didn't know that he is telling the lies. Get what I mean? 

Okay, let's make it simple. A person that lie is not knowing that he is lying.

Yes, this one makes it looks easy to understand tho. So yes, I have experience with this person and all I could said is this person never have the right thing about him. If he is the one that captivate the person by lying, then he is not going to stay long before the lies came out. It's a disease that if we think its only a small matter, it could be broad to become a big one some day.

I'm not that good, but then let's trying not to lie anyone. It's maybe looks small but it may affect the life of a person. In Islam, Rasulullah S.A.W the prophet never lies even in jokes. Everything is pure as the person itself. I'm not saying that its easy, but why don't give a shot? Start from today not to telling lies to anyone. There were lies that are allowed but then you need to read and do a research more. 

We love Rasulullah. Why don't we prove the love?

Sollu allan nabiy. 

So, I have promised to continue my story but then its just been putting aside for quite a long time. not sure if anyone read the story but will continue it now. Lets recap before I begin the second part. In the last part, I have been writing about how I really wish to put all my stressed feelings away in quite rebellious way. There, I found something that attract my attention straight away.

Yes, we are going back at last after taking pictures and etc. This attract my attention as I looked at him just like doing something in front of the van. I thought he is talking to the van but something that surprised me is that he is praying! 

That moment, he taught me something. Grateful to be here, mesmerizing with the beach scenery that looks really amazing and a lesson that I would kept in my life diary. In daily life, we always have reasons not to pray on the time. I wont said that this uncle perform his prayers early, but at least he didn't find a reason for not performing the prayers with the reason there is no place to pray. 

We always find a reason for not doing a good deeds. If you know the rewards from the Almighty you wont delay to do the good things.

May Allah keeps our heart on the right track to Jannah.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Okay, everyone. I have this thing on my mind and I wanted really quickly to write and share everything so that it could benefit to anyone that read this.

Okay, so this lately I have this symptom that called 'malas-solat'. I always love to delay my solat eventho i delay it for only 30 minutes after adhan. sometimes, I do critize myself on the nonsense behavious. I want him that go straight away to surau solat berjemaah but I'm here still sitting on a bed listening and watching benda benda lagha (or so called wasting my precise time that left).

So yes. I went to every place to seek for peace. I just wanted to feel this kind of calmness or peace or anything that you called. I'm pretty sure all of you know how the feelings that wanted to stay calm in any 'serabut' condition. But, as expected I didn't get all that. The things that only happen to me is I keep rebel and break the rules (asrama rules). That's the only way for me to get over with everything.

One day, I asked my friends Akif to bring to any pantai. I thought by looking with the good scenery that I own will let me forget about the exams and assignments. Forgot to mention that I'm sitting for my final exam in my final semester. you know what? the stress are higher in this final sem as I'm so not willing and ready to repeat any paper. :( Hopefully there will be not one paper that I'm going to learn back. So yes have too far away from the story.

I have been screaming and taking pictures. so yes, we are going to the beach. and its 4 of us and not only akif as I bring along two of my gf's. Lot of pictures were taken as one of my gf's are using Iphone 5. The excitement comes as I'm really feels that this is the way to end the tension besides eating.

Before reach the beach, we have been listening western songs in the car. All sort of songs. from the slower one to the faster one, we would be like enjoying ourselves in there. But, there is something missing from me. still, cant find it.

Quite longer post. will continue in Part 2.

Hey everbody. :)

In this few days, I have been moved to write something that inspired people. After have a thought, so here I am to write something that inspired people starting from this post. As the first lesson starts, I will start with something not too heavy. Or otherwise I think its going to be hard to be absorb.

Lessons number 1: Dont take zikr as a simple matter.

Have you ever feel that everything is difficult? If the answer is yes, then you are lack of something. Truth to be told, I feel this experience once when I have this kind of anxiety in myself. I feel that everything that I'm doing will be disapprove by others and people might 'hate' me. I always think this. Could be said like all the time.

But, then. On one fine day, I have been forced to listen zikir on my mp3 list. There is so much zikr but I have decided to put them aside when I'm doing certain works but then this time around I feel 'serabut'. I couldnt even could ease all this by eating. I have tried to watch a movie but then this feelings were really messed up. So, I turned on zikr and tried to follow in my heart and finally I fell asleep.

See, this is the key. :) Zikir will always make you remember Him. In remembrance of Him, you will find peace.

Yes, like the rest of you I really wish to have something/someone to stay. I mean like the real stay. To have someone that is really understands me, really could be someone that ease my tension during a day and also someone that could just accept the way I act, talk and etc. Too many dreams to ask to be fulfilled right?

Until some day, I could feel that all of that was only meant for a dreams. There is nothing like that in this world. Nothing long enough to stay with us. If you have a gadget, would the gadget stays along with you the rest of your life? The answer will be absolutely NO. 

I dont know about this world as I'm less experienced myself. But people do go. All the times.

Please don't say that your spouse will always be with you because certain times, they do have fight with us due to some reasons. See? Evryone will start leave if they see the bad in us. But, who stays at the end of the road?

I feel devastated, sad and sometimes I feel pathetic to let at least someone understand my pain. I feel that I couldn't longer hold on to anything. Yes, once upon a time I lived by the faith that my friends, family are everything. But, who stays?

NO ONE!

You have to stand by your own as sometimes they couldn't longer hold to your hands. They need to let you go for someone else. Someone that is much understanding, flawless for them. Someone that knows how to behave well.

With this post, I really wish I could describe the sadness and the pain I have experienced that I truly believe that no one will understand except Him. 

'lek ah, you should pray the best for him'

'kau kawan jenis apa tak faham kawan sendiri?'

'You are selfish.'

'You are people that couldnt see others happy'

What do you thought when someone that you really loves, really care didn't even try to take your matters into their concern anymore? left you hanging alone?

As I said, no one stays. 

Lastly, I will like to remind all of you that the only thing stays is our deens. Do good to people. Because kindness is the only thing that stays.

In a grave when we died, thats only things that stays. 

Not meant to leave what we have, but appreciate every single moments Allah gave you. Don't be too obsessed in protecting someone like myself. 

P/s: I have no heart to be broke anymore. I'm hurt enough.

Selfreflection. Do pray for me. Jzkk.

Heart.

I feel blessed.

with the presence of you.

with the memories that you gave..

with even the slightest dot.

Your sight,
Your words,
Your action.
Describe everything that you feel.

I feel blessed,
I feel wonderful,
my day were enlighten with your presence.

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