Life of A Slave

CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL GRADUATES!

A few days ago, I'm officially graduated from MARA Professional College for Diploma In English Communication. After about three years of struggling, ups and down, and finally the time to celebrate the effort has come to the end. 

Let me say alhamdulillah for all the kindness that Allah has blessed me during my diploma journey. Without His blessings, I might not achieve all the success by myself. Yes, the success will not come by its own without our efforts but then all the things that happened to us its because of His kindness. 

Three years. Not a short time. The time that I know, learn and understand the meanings of study life. Friends that has various type of attitudes. The one that is being nice towards us. The one that stabs us at the back. The one that will depends on us during group discussion. The one that don't know how to handle the pressure of doing the assignments. There were so much to be remembered. Not to forget, the lecturers that has been helping me a lot. I really cant put into words of 

Friends. The one that is with me during group discussions, projects, competitions and even in life. Thanks to all of you and its quite hard actually to put all the names that has been with me during the journey. So, I hope by reading this post, my friends will be knowing that I really appreciate every single one of you. I really mean it.

Lastly, special appreciation goes to my family. Without their supports, I will not be here. I will not be able to complete all the six semesters. The countless time that I have give up, they will always be there to give motivations.

I dont want to spam my friends instagram timeline, so here I will share the graduation pictures in this post. Most of the pictures, I'm looking pale as I'm not feeling well that day. 

ALL THE BEST TO ALL OF THE GRADUATES IN FUTURE!

Till we meet again everyone. :)

Hey everyone.

In life, we expect our beloved one to stay with us up and down. We have our own enemy or the person that we don't like most of the time. We want the one that we love to be at our side not only during the hard times but then every day of our lives. The love could came from a husband to a wife, from a parents to their child and maybe the love of the subordinates to the superior. (you will never know).

We tend not to appreciate whats in front of our eyes. We loves to think that they will always be with us. And the most important thing is we never thought that we could have lost them anytime any minutes from us.

The scenario happens to me. I always fight with this one person. Always argue on one thing and more. In one day, there is must a scene between both of us. Its hard for us to agree on one terms even tho its only involving a small matter. Whether you like it or not, you will never thought this person that you hate will go away from you someday. You will never have a chance to speak with him/her, and you will never feel the same feelings again with someone else.

That precious moments that you own now is the one that you need to appreciate. you need to cheer and enjoy it until the last for every single moments that you went through before its too late. as in my case, I could say that I have missed the precious moments. I let it went away from me and i realized it a little bit too late. I guess the moments will never come back to me. The only things that I have now is memories.

Let bygones be bygones right? Live our life with the people that we have now. Please appreciate them while they were by your sides. If its not you will end up regret for what you have lost.

My advice; start appreciate.

May Allah bless our life journey with our favorite people.

Hello everybody.

So, yes. Hectic and could be said struggle year. First post for this year. 

Intern time. 

'Farhana, stay strong. Intern is a cheap labor'

'Intern lah untuk perah tenaga'

'Intern will be assigned to do here and there but still can gain experience'

Yes. Those words I have heard from lecturers to seniors. 

Yes. I could define that intern is not as good like I have been imagined all this while. 

Not much to share bcs everything that I have experienced is a life journey, life struggle. You will never gain anything if you stay in your comfort zone. 

Once, back in the college I was pampered with lecturers, friends, seniors and staffs. All of them were too kind even there is sometimes they are mean, but they are not 'testing' me out of the range. 

In the meanwhile, internship brings me a lot of opportunity to keep patience. To struggle to show them that I could do something better. To serve them something that they could be used after my intern period. 

Sometimes, during the midst of hardship, I just forgot to be who I am. I keep pretending and I think its good for certain situations as I need to follow instructions and not instructing people. During college time, I was used to be a leader that guide everyone to the light. But then, this time I laid back and follow everything that has been instructed. Even this is sounds good, but everything has their pros and cons

I could said, that intern is quite suffering for me as I have been assigned so many tasks at one time. I have to go there and there to do something that is not what I have been learnt throughout the three years in college. I need to communicate with people that obviously not something into my favorites. 

But, and but. I learn so many things during this hard times. For something that you don't like, and have been forced to do, you need courage to face the situations. You need motivations and this is the time that you will be cried, you will be in a mental breakdown. But, remember this. When the going gets tough, the tough gets going. 

One thing that I have always remind myself, stay positive. Bcs people that has clear mind only can move the negativity out from its body. 

Alrighto, Salam Jumaat everybody. 

Aing nu saha? ;) 

**I'm learning bugis language. Do pray for me. Jzkk. ;)

Hey everyone. So yes, love lesson.

I think I never good in this but then I think I could share some experience with all of you. Like how Ted Mosby did when he tell the story of how they met their mother to his kids, I will like to do the same thing just its a little bit different as I'm telling about what I have heard before.

'I couldn't forget him'

'I think he is the one'

'I have tried, but he will come'

and the worse part that I have heard is, "I CAN'T".......

So, yes. Have been looking and listening to the same things over and over since my high school. I was so good in giving advice about moving on but I know it wont be that easy once you fall for him/her. Through my own experience, I will give some tips how to let go and keep smiling eventho its hurt much.

Imagine, on how you are hungry and you really wanted to eat. There is no one will stop you to eat those delicious pizza in front of you. But then, all of sudden you said you can't. You can't eat! Why do you need to say so? You don't have to face anything to eat those pizza, but only with the words that come out from yourself that stops you. 

That's how life, friends. You are the one that decide whether you can or not. Whether you want it or not. If you are in that kind of really wanting someone, so why do you need to wait? Start from today. Never ruin yourself for someone that is not thinking or even bother if you are upset. 

I really hope those short advice will wake all of you from keep dreaming to be princess in the reality. Till then, bye. 

Hey, everyone. Peace be upon you. :)

A long time didn't write something since the last post. So, here I am going to share a story as everyone knows that I love to write about my own experience. Bizarre lies or the more powerful words is lies that are weird, strange or unusual to be seen. People are involved with lies or deceit almost everyday. Nahh, there is no one that escape from this disease including me. I'm also have my own lies towards my parents, my friends, my surroundings.

But, then this time I'm going to share about the lies that are not that usual. At least for me, its not usual but then for everyone else maybe its something that normal or could be said as a routine. As I have experienced recently, there is a person that told the lies didn't know that he is telling the lies. Get what I mean? 

Okay, let's make it simple. A person that lie is not knowing that he is lying.

Yes, this one makes it looks easy to understand tho. So yes, I have experience with this person and all I could said is this person never have the right thing about him. If he is the one that captivate the person by lying, then he is not going to stay long before the lies came out. It's a disease that if we think its only a small matter, it could be broad to become a big one some day.

I'm not that good, but then let's trying not to lie anyone. It's maybe looks small but it may affect the life of a person. In Islam, Rasulullah S.A.W the prophet never lies even in jokes. Everything is pure as the person itself. I'm not saying that its easy, but why don't give a shot? Start from today not to telling lies to anyone. There were lies that are allowed but then you need to read and do a research more. 

We love Rasulullah. Why don't we prove the love?

Sollu allan nabiy. 

So, I have promised to continue my story but then its just been putting aside for quite a long time. not sure if anyone read the story but will continue it now. Lets recap before I begin the second part. In the last part, I have been writing about how I really wish to put all my stressed feelings away in quite rebellious way. There, I found something that attract my attention straight away.

Yes, we are going back at last after taking pictures and etc. This attract my attention as I looked at him just like doing something in front of the van. I thought he is talking to the van but something that surprised me is that he is praying! 

That moment, he taught me something. Grateful to be here, mesmerizing with the beach scenery that looks really amazing and a lesson that I would kept in my life diary. In daily life, we always have reasons not to pray on the time. I wont said that this uncle perform his prayers early, but at least he didn't find a reason for not performing the prayers with the reason there is no place to pray. 

We always find a reason for not doing a good deeds. If you know the rewards from the Almighty you wont delay to do the good things.

May Allah keeps our heart on the right track to Jannah.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Okay, everyone. I have this thing on my mind and I wanted really quickly to write and share everything so that it could benefit to anyone that read this.

Okay, so this lately I have this symptom that called 'malas-solat'. I always love to delay my solat eventho i delay it for only 30 minutes after adhan. sometimes, I do critize myself on the nonsense behavious. I want him that go straight away to surau solat berjemaah but I'm here still sitting on a bed listening and watching benda benda lagha (or so called wasting my precise time that left).

So yes. I went to every place to seek for peace. I just wanted to feel this kind of calmness or peace or anything that you called. I'm pretty sure all of you know how the feelings that wanted to stay calm in any 'serabut' condition. But, as expected I didn't get all that. The things that only happen to me is I keep rebel and break the rules (asrama rules). That's the only way for me to get over with everything.

One day, I asked my friends Akif to bring to any pantai. I thought by looking with the good scenery that I own will let me forget about the exams and assignments. Forgot to mention that I'm sitting for my final exam in my final semester. you know what? the stress are higher in this final sem as I'm so not willing and ready to repeat any paper. :( Hopefully there will be not one paper that I'm going to learn back. So yes have too far away from the story.

I have been screaming and taking pictures. so yes, we are going to the beach. and its 4 of us and not only akif as I bring along two of my gf's. Lot of pictures were taken as one of my gf's are using Iphone 5. The excitement comes as I'm really feels that this is the way to end the tension besides eating.

Before reach the beach, we have been listening western songs in the car. All sort of songs. from the slower one to the faster one, we would be like enjoying ourselves in there. But, there is something missing from me. still, cant find it.

Quite longer post. will continue in Part 2.