Yes, like the rest of you I really wish to have something/someone to stay. I mean like the real stay. To have someone that is really understands me, really could be someone that ease my tension during a day and also someone that could just accept the way I act, talk and etc. Too many dreams to ask to be fulfilled right?

Until some day, I could feel that all of that was only meant for a dreams. There is nothing like that in this world. Nothing long enough to stay with us. If you have a gadget, would the gadget stays along with you the rest of your life? The answer will be absolutely NO. 

I dont know about this world as I'm less experienced myself. But people do go. All the times.

Please don't say that your spouse will always be with you because certain times, they do have fight with us due to some reasons. See? Evryone will start leave if they see the bad in us. But, who stays at the end of the road?

I feel devastated, sad and sometimes I feel pathetic to let at least someone understand my pain. I feel that I couldn't longer hold on to anything. Yes, once upon a time I lived by the faith that my friends, family are everything. But, who stays?

NO ONE!

You have to stand by your own as sometimes they couldn't longer hold to your hands. They need to let you go for someone else. Someone that is much understanding, flawless for them. Someone that knows how to behave well.

With this post, I really wish I could describe the sadness and the pain I have experienced that I truly believe that no one will understand except Him. 

'lek ah, you should pray the best for him'

'kau kawan jenis apa tak faham kawan sendiri?'

'You are selfish.'

'You are people that couldnt see others happy'

What do you thought when someone that you really loves, really care didn't even try to take your matters into their concern anymore? left you hanging alone?

As I said, no one stays. 

Lastly, I will like to remind all of you that the only thing stays is our deens. Do good to people. Because kindness is the only thing that stays.

In a grave when we died, thats only things that stays. 

Not meant to leave what we have, but appreciate every single moments Allah gave you. Don't be too obsessed in protecting someone like myself. 

P/s: I have no heart to be broke anymore. I'm hurt enough.

Selfreflection. Do pray for me. Jzkk.