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Life of A Slave

Allah is not going to change someone's fate until you have that effort to change it.

bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Assalamualaikum. :)

tarikh ini merupakan tarikh keramat bagi saya. tarikh yg banyak mengubah segalanya. tak tahu macammana nak explain. yg sy tahu tarikh ini membahagiakan sy. dari awal pagi hinggalah ke malamnya. Alhamdullilah. :)
semua ini disebabkan oleh dia. :) hati sy yg selalu membahagiakan sy. :)

awal pagi,dia dah text sy. but,as usual sykan anak dara yg trlampau baik! bangun pun lambat. jgn tanyalah lmbtnya macam mana. :D sejurus sy bangun,sy pun balaslah text dia. ktorg text smpailah dia mntak izin untuk call sy. lalu,dia pun call sy selepas kami brdua menunaikan solat zuhur. kami brcakap selama 45 minit. trlalu bnyak untuk dikongsi. :)

petangnya,tiada yg trlalu istimewa. cuma,sekeping kerisauan bersarang di benaknya. itu yg dapat aku nukilkan kerana dia benar2 menjaga aku. aku bukan tak suka tetapi aku hanyalah insan biasa yang mengenal erti kerimasan kerana terlalu dijaga. tetapi,bagi aku ini merupakan satu tanda kepadaku bahawa dia menyayangiku. tak kisahlah syg sbgai kawan atau pun lebih. aku bersyukur! :)

malamnya,buat pertama kali aku melihatnya memakai jubah. masjid kota damansara menjadi saksi kepada apa yg aku lihat. aku kagum dan terharu. bukan setakat jubah tetapi serban juga. akhirnya,dia menjadi seperti apa yg aku selalu idamkan. aku terharu! sungguh, aku terharu. tiada perkataan yg aku dapat gambarkan apabila aku melihat dia ketika itu. di malam itu juga,kami berdua menonton rancangan yg sama. bukan rancangan tetapi filem. filem hindustan yg brtajuk mann. mann bermaksud hati dan perasaan. lagu di dalam cerita itu amatlah menyesakkan nafas kerana lagunya amat menusuk kalbu. huhu.

*maafkan sy di atas kejiwangan sy dalam post ini.

heartyoulove.terima kasih,awak! :')
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bismillahirrahmanirrahim. assalamualaikum,smua!

rasanya dah lama tak updatekan? yelah. bukak blog tp tak tau nak tulis apa. biasalah tu. hidup tak seindah yg kita fikirkan tapi tak seburuk yg kita sangkakan. :) now,aku tak naklah mengarut dan merapek. nak cakap terus je. :) aku dgn dia. alhamdullilah. i feel so grateful to have him besides me. he really take a good care of me. then,i'm just like feel want to cry after telling all of you this.

biarlah cinta dan syg sy datang dgn sendirinya untuk awak.

i hold your words. seriously,he totally with me right now. i'm just feel that he is the one for me. May Allah bless both of us. i just can't explain even more. i just know that we are in a good relationship and in a good condition. 25/1/2012. a date that explain everything to me. :')

heartyoulove.i'm going to wait for you.
:')
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bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Assalamualaikum.

now,i'm totally lost in my own feelings. hurtttt and deeeepppply hurrttttt. okeyy. i have to let it go,right? just be patient for what she has done. huhhhhh. this year,i have to face the problem with my sister. yeah,two sister. actually,not my real sister. but,i have treat them as my own sister. so,it's hurt when i get to know that both of them are really far away from me for someone else. okey. i'm not perfect! and i don't even want to be perfectionist!

i'm just pray the best for my both sister! do hope the best things only for them. the way i love them,they wouldn't find it on others. trust me! :')

huhhh. it just make me hurt! thanks!
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bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Assalamualaikum. :)

this post is for someone that really i guess ignore me lately. yeah. i'm touched with her attitudes. don't ask me who is the person because i'm not going to answer. i don't even know if i'm the only one who feels it.

sometimes,we just ignore a person that really take a good care of us and go with somebody else. just remember! the person will always be with you eventhough you have hurt their feelings because their love are not the same as others.


i'm totally hurt but i will act just like nothing has ever hurt me. just fine! i know that i'm overrrr sensitive and i know it! don't worry. i'm back off from your happy life. just i can't stop from feel dissapointed for what you have done in the last moment before you left me alone. you are going to place that you will have a better relationship and better everything. eventhough i'm just a usual sister, but my love will not going to be same as others. just remember that! :')


heartyoulove.i'm totally hurt.
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bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Assalamualaikum.

dah lama tak menjengah ke ruangan nie. alasannya banyak untuk dikemukan. tetapi,saya takut smua itu dikatakan alasan tepu. as usual,sy sudah menjadi pelajar tingkatan lima. ye,LIMA! :D dan saya trpaksa menghadapi pahit getirnya tingkatan lima ini dengan pelbagai kejadian yg trjadi. tak sampai dua minggu di sana tetapi sudah tiga kali menitiskan air mata. aduhhh. lemah sungguh jiwa ini.

biarlah yg trjadi. gembira,terharu,kesal,sayang. semuanya aku miliki di dalam tempoh kurang dari sebulan ini. aku mnyayangi sesuatu itu. tapi,aku tau dan aku cukup sedar bahawa sesuatu yg kita hendak itu tak semestinya kita miliki. Aku masih aku. aku masih lagi seorang yg lemah. banyak perlu diperbaiki. apa yg harus aku katakan? aku manusia yg brgelumang dgn dosa dan maksiat. aku bukan malaikat!

nafsu mnguasai diri. dan itu selalu trjadi. aku harus tahu mengawal diri aku daripada membazirkan masa tak tentu hala. aku harus! ini tahun penentu aku. aku harus berusaha dan melakukan yg trbaik. bukan untuk org lain. tapi untuk diri aku sendiri! :) bnyak yg aku lalui. kini,aku bukan setakat pelajar biasa. aku kakak kepada 13 orang pelajar di dalam dorm cempaka. aku sudah menganggap mereka sprti adikku sendiri. :)

homework? jgn citerlah. memang banyak. dan tak melampau kalau dikatakan trlalu banyak! :D but,i feel grateful because teacher didn't let us spend our times with a stupid things. :) thanks,teacher. :D

okeylah,rasanya cukup dulu pasal asrama. dorm. dan jugak 2012 yg baru ditempuhi. :)

p/s:try untuk hidup tanpa dia. :')
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Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Assalamualaikum. :’)

Sad face right? Yeah,that should be. I’m having fever and flu right now. I feel sucks as I have to register my name in the hostel with my mom tomorrow. It’s 4 in the morning now and I just can’t sleep. How can I cure this disease? Don’t ask me to eat any medicine. I have took flu medicine just now. And I think it’s not going to stop anyway. I’m really sorry for those person that read this and worry. If they worry. I’m really sorry. I just want to write smthing new about me over here. :’)

For those person that hate this,please cease from reading this. I’m not going to force anyone to read my blog :) I’m a friendly person if you know me well as my other friends has knew me before this. okey,no more reminder for those person that dislike this blog. I just want to share a story about myheart. sorry. I have to write it over here because I also have feelings. So,I want to share it. :')

Before that,if if and if you are annoying with all my words please leave me a cmment. I’m not going to angry. I just want to know. Okey. I should finish what I have start right? Fine. He has been accepted as a colleague or a student at maahad tahfiz as-solehin. Alhamdullilah. Finally,he has been accepted to be one of the huffaz. :’) I’m touched when hear that. Once time ago,I have been dreamed to be huffaz but my education didn’t allowed me. I didn’t take Arabic subject in PMR. So,I can’t apply any Islamic boarding school just like maahad hamidiah kajang. I wish I can turn the time back. But,it just a dream! :)

I’m really happy. But,deep in my heart I’m sad because it’s time for him to leave. He is going there on 8th January. I just wish him the best. I can’t do anything just like stop him from go. I ask him before this to go away and learn smthing that he really wants. He has met what he really want in his life. Al-quran and that’s what he wants in his heart. I really feel blessed to have him as my friend. He is a special one in my life but I don’t even know what is my position in his life. I don’t even bother about it. The important thing is his happiness that granted for his future life. That’s all. just like my akak. Fatin Nurizzati. Sacrifice everything for Luqman Sufyan happiness. I do the same thing. Just I’m not a married couple as them. Hehe. :D

May Allah bless both of you :) I pray the best for you myheart. Insyallah. Do pray for me too. Friends,I hope your prayers for him. I really hope. Till then,I’m going to pray along with all of you. :')

A year that full of a lot of things. 2012. Maybe. I don’t even know what’s going on in the future. Just hope the best. SPM is waiting for me. So,I have to be more serious in my study this year :)

Heartyoulove.take care.
I’m going to be fine. Don’t worry. :')

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bismillahirrahmanirrahim. assalamualaikum. :)

trlalu bnyak untuk diceritakan pada kali nie. bukan sahaja tntang tahun ini tetapi tntang pngisian yang berlaku. adam adli,kes mahasiswa,NFC dan pelbagai skandal politik boleh didengari di mana2 sahaja. cukuplah dgn tu. bagi aku trlalu bnyak rentetan cerita yg boleh aku lakarkan. cuma,sekarang aku tidak mmpunyai apa2 perasaan untuk menceritakan smua tu.

malam tahun baru aku disambut di masjid kota damansara. di sana masjid menganjurkan hiburan otai rock yg trdiri daripada ismail bin zainuddin iaitu mel yg mrupakan bekas ahli kmpulan wings. selain itu, abg afi drpd kumpulan utopia juga berada di sana. maaf, aku lupa pulak nama dia. tp,malam tu diisi dgn penuh pngisian. nama pun hiburan otai rock. mereka berdua bercerita serba sedikit tntang diri mereka dan dikendalikan oleh ustaz nazmi karim. aku tgok majlis nie sampai kul 11 je. lepas tu ayah nak balik. tp,aku smpatlah dgar mereka menyanyikan tiga buah lagu. awesomeeeelaaaaahhh weii! :D seronok sngat tgok diaorg berubah dan mendapat hidayah. Alhamdullilah. :) *dia tgok sekali. :')

malam tahun baru nie juga aku dikejutkan dgn satu berita. aku mndapat tahu dia sudah pun mndapat tawaran untuk melanjutkan pelajaran ke maahad di sungai besar. Alhamdullilah dia memilih aku untuk mnjadi org prtama untuk mngetahuinya. sekurang2nya aku tidak ditinggalkan tanpa berita. terima kasih,awak. aku berharap sngat dia akan menjadi yg trbaik di sana. Amin amin ya rabbal alamin.

heartyoulove. all the best!
:') it's hard to let you go.
but,u have to go. for Allah. :')
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