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Life of A Slave

Allah is not going to change someone's fate until you have that effort to change it.

Hey everyone. So yes, love lesson.

I think I never good in this but then I think I could share some experience with all of you. Like how Ted Mosby did when he tell the story of how they met their mother to his kids, I will like to do the same thing just its a little bit different as I'm telling about what I have heard before.

'I couldn't forget him'
'I think he is the one'
'I have tried, but he will come'

and the worse part that I have heard is, "I CAN'T".......

So, yes. Have been looking and listening to the same things over and over since my high school. I was so good in giving advice about moving on but I know it wont be that easy once you fall for him/her. Through my own experience, I will give some tips how to let go and keep smiling eventho its hurt much.

Imagine, on how you are hungry and you really wanted to eat. There is no one will stop you to eat those delicious pizza in front of you. But then, all of sudden you said you can't. You can't eat! Why do you need to say so? You don't have to face anything to eat those pizza, but only with the words that come out from yourself that stops you. 

That's how life, friends. You are the one that decide whether you can or not. Whether you want it or not. If you are in that kind of really wanting someone, so why do you need to wait? Start from today. Never ruin yourself for someone that is not thinking or even bother if you are upset. 

I really hope those short advice will wake all of you from keep dreaming to be princess in the reality. Till then, bye. 

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Hey, everyone. Peace be upon you. :)

A long time didn't write something since the last post. So, here I am going to share a story as everyone knows that I love to write about my own experience. Bizarre lies or the more powerful words is lies that are weird, strange or unusual to be seen. People are involved with lies or deceit almost everyday. Nahh, there is no one that escape from this disease including me. I'm also have my own lies towards my parents, my friends, my surroundings.

But, then this time I'm going to share about the lies that are not that usual. At least for me, its not usual but then for everyone else maybe its something that normal or could be said as a routine. As I have experienced recently, there is a person that told the lies didn't know that he is telling the lies. Get what I mean? 

Okay, let's make it simple. A person that lie is not knowing that he is lying.

Yes, this one makes it looks easy to understand tho. So yes, I have experience with this person and all I could said is this person never have the right thing about him. If he is the one that captivate the person by lying, then he is not going to stay long before the lies came out. It's a disease that if we think its only a small matter, it could be broad to become a big one some day.

I'm not that good, but then let's trying not to lie anyone. It's maybe looks small but it may affect the life of a person. In Islam, Rasulullah S.A.W the prophet never lies even in jokes. Everything is pure as the person itself. I'm not saying that its easy, but why don't give a shot? Start from today not to telling lies to anyone. There were lies that are allowed but then you need to read and do a research more. 

We love Rasulullah. Why don't we prove the love?

Sollu allan nabiy. 
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Peace be upon you. Hey, everyone.

So, I have promised to continue my story but then its just been putting aside for quite a long time. not sure if anyone read the story but will continue it now. Lets recap before I begin the second part. In the last part, I have been writing about how I really wish to put all my stressed feelings away in quite rebellious way. There, I found something that attract my attention straight away.


Yes, we are going back at last after taking pictures and etc. This attract my attention as I looked at him just like doing something in front of the van. I thought he is talking to the van but something that surprised me is that he is praying! 

That moment, he taught me something. Grateful to be here, mesmerizing with the beach scenery that looks really amazing and a lesson that I would kept in my life diary. In daily life, we always have reasons not to pray on the time. I wont said that this uncle perform his prayers early, but at least he didn't find a reason for not performing the prayers with the reason there is no place to pray. 

We always find a reason for not doing a good deeds. If you know the rewards from the Almighty you wont delay to do the good things.

May Allah keeps our heart on the right track to Jannah.
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Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Okay, everyone. I have this thing on my mind and I wanted really quickly to write and share everything so that it could benefit to anyone that read this.

Okay, so this lately I have this symptom that called 'malas-solat'. I always love to delay my solat eventho i delay it for only 30 minutes after adhan. sometimes, I do critize myself on the nonsense behavious. I want him that go straight away to surau solat berjemaah but I'm here still sitting on a bed listening and watching benda benda lagha (or so called wasting my precise time that left).

So yes. I went to every place to seek for peace. I just wanted to feel this kind of calmness or peace or anything that you called. I'm pretty sure all of you know how the feelings that wanted to stay calm in any 'serabut' condition. But, as expected I didn't get all that. The things that only happen to me is I keep rebel and break the rules (asrama rules). That's the only way for me to get over with everything.

One day, I asked my friends Akif to bring to any pantai. I thought by looking with the good scenery that I own will let me forget about the exams and assignments. Forgot to mention that I'm sitting for my final exam in my final semester. you know what? the stress are higher in this final sem as I'm so not willing and ready to repeat any paper. :( Hopefully there will be not one paper that I'm going to learn back. So yes have too far away from the story.

I have been screaming and taking pictures. so yes, we are going to the beach. and its 4 of us and not only akif as I bring along two of my gf's. Lot of pictures were taken as one of my gf's are using Iphone 5. The excitement comes as I'm really feels that this is the way to end the tension besides eating.

Before reach the beach, we have been listening western songs in the car. All sort of songs. from the slower one to the faster one, we would be like enjoying ourselves in there. But, there is something missing from me. still, cant find it.

Quite longer post. will continue in Part 2.
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Hey everbody. :)

In this few days, I have been moved to write something that inspired people. After have a thought, so here I am to write something that inspired people starting from this post. As the first lesson starts, I will start with something not too heavy. Or otherwise I think its going to be hard to be absorb.

Lessons number 1: Dont take zikr as a simple matter.

Have you ever feel that everything is difficult? If the answer is yes, then you are lack of something. Truth to be told, I feel this experience once when I have this kind of anxiety in myself. I feel that everything that I'm doing will be disapprove by others and people might 'hate' me. I always think this. Could be said like all the time.

But, then. On one fine day, I have been forced to listen zikir on my mp3 list. There is so much zikr but I have decided to put them aside when I'm doing certain works but then this time around I feel 'serabut'. I couldnt even could ease all this by eating. I have tried to watch a movie but then this feelings were really messed up. So, I turned on zikr and tried to follow in my heart and finally I fell asleep.

See, this is the key. :) Zikir will always make you remember Him. In remembrance of Him, you will find peace.


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We surely knows that there is nothing last forever in this world. Nothing will stay with us until the end exception our deeds and kindness that people will remember until the end of our life.

Yes, like the rest of you I really wish to have something/someone to stay. I mean like the real stay. To have someone that is really understands me, really could be someone that ease my tension during a day and also someone that could just accept the way I act, talk and etc. Too many dreams to ask to be fulfilled right?

Until some day, I could feel that all of that was only meant for a dreams. There is nothing like that in this world. Nothing long enough to stay with us. If you have a gadget, would the gadget stays along with you the rest of your life? The answer will be absolutely NO. 

I dont know about this world as I'm less experienced myself. But people do go. All the times.

Please don't say that your spouse will always be with you because certain times, they do have fight with us due to some reasons. See? Evryone will start leave if they see the bad in us. But, who stays at the end of the road?

I feel devastated, sad and sometimes I feel pathetic to let at least someone understand my pain. I feel that I couldn't longer hold on to anything. Yes, once upon a time I lived by the faith that my friends, family are everything. But, who stays?

NO ONE!

You have to stand by your own as sometimes they couldn't longer hold to your hands. They need to let you go for someone else. Someone that is much understanding, flawless for them. Someone that knows how to behave well.

With this post, I really wish I could describe the sadness and the pain I have experienced that I truly believe that no one will understand except Him. 

'lek ah, you should pray the best for him'
'kau kawan jenis apa tak faham kawan sendiri?'
'You are selfish.'
'You are people that couldnt see others happy'

What do you thought when someone that you really loves, really care didn't even try to take your matters into their concern anymore? left you hanging alone?

As I said, no one stays. 

Lastly, I will like to remind all of you that the only thing stays is our deens. Do good to people. Because kindness is the only thing that stays.

In a grave when we died, thats only things that stays. 

Not meant to leave what we have, but appreciate every single moments Allah gave you. Don't be too obsessed in protecting someone like myself. 

P/s: I have no heart to be broke anymore. I'm hurt enough.

Selfreflection. Do pray for me. Jzkk.


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Idk. I feel emotional during this eid and i just keep wondering why. My heart ache when my wish is not fulfilled and sometimes my tears are really like so cheap. I'm hardly cry on any occasion but this time around I feel like I'm getting soft.

Heart.

I feel blessed.
with the presence of you.
with the memories that you gave..
with even the slightest dot.

Your sight,
Your words,
Your action.
Describe everything that you feel.

I feel blessed,
I feel wonderful,
my day were enlighten with your presence.

read from the bottom to the top.


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 Hello people! May peace be upon you (acah acah Anwar Hadi).

So, today I have been crossed to write this topic. Yes, Fashions In Islam. I think Islam is not that extreme that don't allowed us as a muslim and like women that loves to style themselves esp in hijab. We have the rules and regulations that must be followed but not it doesnt mean it would stop us from wearing according to the latest fashions.

In Malaysia, we got a lot of artists that still wearing hijab. Depa pakai pun bukan semua hitam, berfashion. :) So, jangan sebab nak bertudung labuh sikit kata kena pakai hitam pakai tudung kashibo. Ada je shawl halfmoon labuh, tudung labuh yang lawa lawa. tak percaya? jom, aku tunjuk bukti sikit. :)

okay, ignore this one. silap.
see the next one. hihi






Okay, first thing. Post nie mungkin kena cakap bahasa malaysia bagi memudahkan ramai yang memahami apa yang aku cuba sampaikan.

Berdasarkan ayat Al-Quran, kita disuruh melabuhkan tudung melebihi dada.

"Hendaklah mereka (perempuan) melabuhkan kain tudung hingga menutupi dada-dada mereka”. (An-Nur : 31),

“Hai Nabi, katakanlah kepada intei-isterimu, anak-anakmu dan isteri-isteri orang mukmin: Hendaklah mereka menghulurkan (melabuhkan) jilbabnya (tudung kepala yang labuh menutupi dada) ke tubuh mereka. Yang demikian itu supaya mereka lebih mudah dikenal dan tidak diganggu. Dan ALLAH adalah Maha Pengampun Lagi Maha Penyayang.” (Surah al-Ahzaab: 59)

Girls, melabuhkan tudung ke bawah dada it doesnt mean yg uolls kena pakai tudung kashibo mcm ustazah. Ramai sangat girls treat yg pakai labuh je macam ustazah. Yes, its NOT sebab ini arahan Allah and bukannya sengaja dibuat.

Aku sendiri pernah dihina, dikutuk, dicaci atas tindakan berani aku labuhkan tudung sikit. Antara ayat yang berbunyi, 'kau nak terbang ke dgn tudung sayap tu?' , 'labuh labuh nak pergi mana?' , 'kau ingat kau baik pakai camtu' , 'eleh, acah baik je tu. kejap je tu' and paling pedas 'ustazah weyhh!' tak kurang juga siap ada yang cakap 'pakai telekung ke kau nie?'

Girls, korang berharga sangat. So, ignore orang lain as bila kau dah pakai kau akan tahu betapa selamatnya pakai camtu. 

Like in an advertisement has said, kerana dirimu begitu berharga. 
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This post maybe will the shortest post of all as it will only let the memories fade away. Starting to vanish him in my life. 




Another 1 month to go, we have been started to fight against each other and I guess its not going to come to the end this time. If we are meant to be, then Allah will decide whats the best for me. For now, let's drop the topic and get back to our normal life without each other which you will feel more comfortable. May Allah let me be strong.
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Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. So, its already in May 2015! I didn't even notice how time flies so fast and truth to be told I have experienced so much pain (alhamdulillah) and so much more joys (again, alhamdulillah).

First of all, I have been here because I thought it will be good to write something while you are in misery. and yes, I am. I am in misery. I have tried my best to recover from this kind of things but seems everything has ups and down, I felt tired to fix what I am today.

Y' know what? People around us will never UNDERSTAND us well. NEVER EVER!

Yes, have written in bold and underline. Maybe that's how I really wanted to express my disappointment over a person that I own trust in them. I don't know how to make things right and I don't even know how to make a person fall in love with me because I'm truly full of sins and not perfect at all.

I dont know how to create a character that will be loveable to all the person out there. I'm so not PERFECT! I'm so full of mistakes and yes, you could blame for all my mistakes but don't blame it on my religion. Islam is perfect, but I'm not. I'm doing my best day after day to make sure that I will become a good slave.

But, but and but. Sisters and brother please support me. I will not capable of doing all this alone. Help me out here as I'm trembling without a direction. Instead of letting me down, pick me up and hold my hands to go to jannah together. 

I'm weak but Allah that makes me looks stronger in front of you. Allah that makes me looks perfect in front all of you. And i'm really grateful as Allah makes me look bad in front of a bunch of person as I will start to realize how sinful I am. 


p/s: thank for those who hate me bcs I started to realize that I'm not perfect and I truly believe that's the sign of Him that needed me to change. 
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Peace be upon you.

Yeah, its a long since I have been updated something due to the lots of assignments and etc. So, lately I have been given a test by The Almighty and I feel grateful bcs at the certain point, He shows me who is the true friends and who is hidden behind the bush.

So, this story started with chasing people to 'surau' or nicely called rumah Allah. But, when people that only owns the good face but with dirty heart talks or even making something up, its become worse. When they are acting that they are really great, really truthful and really convincing. Idk what I need to express in this because what I know is I don't want anyone to be like all of them. They are making me like a bad person in front of my respected eldest.

Please, please and please. Not all the time people will see you as a good and mannered person. There is time that you will never realize what you have done and sorry to say, you are pathetic! Sometimes, we need to have this kind of senses. Sense of holding the anger in yourself and not spill it out bcs anger could be something that the evil really loves. We are not going to realize what the words/ attitudes that we have may did that may become hurtful to the other person.

So, as I mentioned please. Take an ablution when you are angry. and one more thing that is really important is, mind your words as they couldn't be taken back once they have been spilled it out by you.

People, I'm not a good person nor a good example to anyone. But, I'm trying my best not to hurt people by using my words. Just like this particular person that has my trust hurt me through words, I truly believe that someday she will realize. She didn't now, but I truly hope she will someday. Let's pray for the best for all of them.

p/s: final is coming around the corner. three months before he went to overseas.
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